In the wave of all things virtual (of which I am usually opposed, or at least, try to refrain from...) I have decided to become a blogger. Actually, I should say I remembered I started a blog a while back, though after one entry never added anything else. Upon careful consideration, ample time at work, and a desire to share thoughts, prayers and musings on life in this little star-town, I've decided to resurrect it.
To begin, I need look no further than my first posting below. Written on the verge of going to Rome almost two years ago (to the day, I kind of have a knack for that) I can't begin to unpack all the irony dripping from every sentence that I wrote. To reflect on and remember how tumultuous of a time that was, and how over-analytical, emotional and indecisive I could be, one would think I had written that...last month. So much for evolving. Sorry, Ida. I can't change.
On my own, that is. He who began a good work in me has been faithful to slowly knead out my knots, and even though I am still just as emotional, over-analytical, and indecisive as ever, to realize how the Lord continually leads and provides, even back then, is simply humbling. It shuts me up. God has such a marvelous design, more fine-tuned and detailed than any of my to-do lists could ever dare to be, and so I don't know why I refuse to let His consistency be my hope. I'm learning though, and better yet...desiring...to cut my strings to the dock of my own dreams. (Analogy alert!)
For me, the past two years are enough of a testament as to how confining our own plans can prove to be, should we give into fear and practicality versus leaving our shoes untied and running in the path of His commands. God is SO good. Jesus is SO radical. I'll gladly take my place outside His door, and yet He invites me in as His beloved. I'm still trying to wrap my head around that one, but also hope I never do.
So in recycling this blog, I read my first post with new insight:
"Sweet girl," I smile to myself, "you have no idea where the Lord is about to take you".